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I just got back! :D
So, while I was there, I was in a class where you filled out a paper about your testimony.
Well, that got me to think.
Did I even really have a testimony?
So I thought about it, and I came up with one.

I was raised in the church, and saved when I was about 6 or 7.
Well these past 4-5 months life has been throwing everything it could at me, all at one time.
My mom just showed back up in my life as quick as she left, and I still haven't decided whether or not I want to start seeing her.
Also, my grandparents have both been in pretty bad condition physically.
It seems like my dad just hasn't really been understanding me lately,
And I lost someone I really loved.
So this is where the pain set in.
I've been really upset since then, and began to blame God for all of it.
I thought that he shouldn't allow someone to go through that pain.
But I tried everyday to fake a smile, so I wouldn't let anyone down.
So basically, this week at camp, they talked about guilt.
&& I felt so terrible for blaming God for these things.
I prayed about everything, and I realized that everything that I go through, the hurt & pain, happens for a reason.
I may not know the reason right now, but it will all work out for the better if I trust Him.
So this week, I just gave it all to God and I'm letting him take control of everything.
I feel 100% better about life, and I feel happy again.
God can do some amazing things at camp.
Pray that I don't lose this fire for God, please.